I have been up for twelve hours and I feel like I don’t have time to write this entry. I have run around all day, doing things, but now I feel exhausted and like I have wasted a day. I still have school work to get done and reading I want to do and TV shows I want to watch, but may not get to any of them. It’s like when I eat too much and regret it, but keep doing it the next day…
I said to my wife that I hope the one lesson I gain from this particular Winter Break is the candle – the beautiful reminder that I am worth sitting down. I probably still don’t see it as a worthwhile activity without exhausting myself first, but that will come later in the exposure list. But just like the kind Science teacher’s cookie told me that a cookie won’t be the death of me, something as beautiful and amazing and loving as a candle to signify my worth cannot be evil and cannot provoke a negative response.
Someone out there believes I am worth it, and more important and timely than that, she’s showing me that I am worth it. I need to do the things that treat me like I’m worth it, now that she’s showing me.