I am an addict. I am a food addict. I am addicted to this giant end-of-day meal; I am addicted to skipping meals; I am addicted to restricting. Every day will be a struggle because of this, and fighting through it every day is necessary. I am just hoping that fighting through this will lead to everything else I need to survive – and let’s be clear, it is about surviving. I cannot survive very much longer.